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incredulousNow Playing: Mekole wells in Menopause the Musical
Hey eveyrone
Itt's been so long since I have written to you or me, first of all Please Forgive Me...for my absence. There is now excuse even though "Thank god" I a still doing my show and am working.. working, working....But I am going through a major trnsformation....Eveyrday in my life as an actress is "an audition" but I have a major audition coming up and it does scare me .."am I good enough" ..can I do it..even though in this business..you have to an air"of confidence" I still have so many insecurities.....then during this time I am at a plateau in my weight, My ex-girlfrined, whom I adore, is now seeing someone else with more beauty , more money, and more status. And I don't care how people "blow smoke up your ass" and say that doesn't phase them ....Reality: it does.....Money talks Bullshit walks....so it hurts.....So all this stuff...which really isn't anything it still hurts my spirit.....but then I think of how far I've come in a year and where I am going ...how the Lord is so good to me.....even when i am not worthy and am not the "soldier" of Christ I should be ...he still loves and brings me up and out the miry clay.. further and further....Last year I was Bankrupt ...tore up....60lbs heavier....just started the play"Menopause the Musical....and since then I have performed in 7 different cities.....I have a house in N.c. and am paying a high ass rent in Chicago ....I am clothe, fed and truly Blessed and saved by Grace.......so what I guess "Another relationship Bit thee Dust...but as SMsCelie said in the "Color Purple " I am still here"
So good Luck to the Ex and Bless the future of new and bigger and better things...Maybe No I should look for the bigger and the better like my Ex has and maybe...I have the person with the big bucks and the Prestige....better Yet let me just look inside me and work harder and I will be the success I need to be for me ....I , You We don't need to find success in another person or look at what someone else has got.....Let "Mekole " just Look at ..take care of and work on Mekole Wells. and let's just work and take the time to work on ourselves ..to make a better world and place............
C u later
Meek Meek
