A new day of truth
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: my mental state
Hey Everybody
today has been aday of reckoning and i feel great......No 1 I made amends with my ex lovers and ex wife....(no names mentioned) and I 've hasd many ex -lovers so take your pick...See she told me I was crazy and I nee dto take my meds......to let folks know I do take meds everyday...to keep me half way on the path...see my problem is having the last word and not letting go when the signs are very apparent...then i get mad and say very mean things( which I don't mean ..but it upsets people) see to me words are just words ..but actions are extremely painful...Really i don't mean the mean things I say i not a fighter so I fight with words and even my close friends know that about me....my insecurity is that I am not a fighter of the physica....i deal with pain everyday of my stabbing, of the industry and of my past realtions what peole don't understand that when you are hurt once you tend to fight back not to be hurt again...the fear is of being hurt again....see people that have led the "white bread or "black buppie" life with plenty of everything wouldn't understand that .....they sometimes look down on me and make excuses for what they haven't done....see when I look at the problems of others i see my own issues....and yes i have many....I'm not afraid to tell anyone of my problems or fears...I'll tell the world because "the truth will set me free' from my demons myself and sll things....thanks you to those who say I am crazy because through the craziness I will one day find sanity...and peace in love


mekole

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